the quickest of updates:
i am alive.
i am in vendôme.
today was really long and difficult mentally + emotionally. i’m feeling all the homesickness right now. plus, my brain is mush.
i’m alive and sleeping in my bed for the first time tonight and have wifi. so everything will be fine.
Hallo vom Deutschland!
Tuesday when I got into Munich my best friend, Kristen, and I went straight to see Dachau Concentration Camp. It was so surreal to finally walk the grounds of a place I have read so much about. Its a hallowed ground, now, and also so very disturbing. But such an important place to see. I’m very glad I was able to spend an afternoon there.
Today was Oktoberfest! I bought a dirndl yesterday and we braided our hair and off we went. It was chilly (this Texan needs to reacclimate to cool weather) so we only walked around for about ten minutes before heading into a beer tent. It was such a wonderful and fun day. We made friends with some Welsh guys who were on day two of Oktoberfest (woof). We all ended up going to get dinner together after, and then walked around Marienplatz a bit. It was so fun and such an experience. Tomorrow we’re off to see Neutchwanstein, the castle that Walt Disney modeled the Cinderella castle at Disneyland after; sadly its supposed to rain but keeping our fingers crossed the beautiful weather sticks around instead.
And I’m exhausted. We walked almost 6 miles yesterday alone and probably around that today, too. So, bedtime for me.
(how is this my life?!)
i haven’t had much worth sharing over the past week. lots of excitement/stress/nerves/procrastinating. the sweating i’ve been doing hasn’t been exciting, boring core & leg work. still no running allowed.
i arrive in europe a week from today. i’ll be in germany being a tourist from tuesday until sunday, and then sunday, 28 sept, i’m off to france. i’ll be staying with my lead teacher (lead of 8 english teachers) that night and then i’ll be moving into my place at the school the next day, along with doing lots of administrative stuff (aka ALL THE PAPERWORK). but i’m really, really excited. i’m also terrified. but excited.
in the meantime, i’m packingpackingpacking my life away into two suitcases + a backpack. deciding which/how many books i can/should bring due to space/weight limits is easily the hardest part of this process.
book excerpt from bittersweet by shauna niequist.
welcome hugs + paletas. phoenix rock gym. cartel coffee. cholla trail, camelback mountain. flowerchild. life-changing brownies. cups of tea. aeropress coffee. tom’s thumb. surviving tom’s thumb. ogre’s den. king of the lizards. hearing a rattlesnake. cholla attack. kayaking tempe town lake + good conversation. FnB. booze. laughter. essence bakery brunch. authentic french pastries. rei trips. barnes & noble trips. quote book exchanges. sweet republic + maple bacon ice cream. the following. solid time with a solid human being.
i said i was going to ‘unplug’ from blogging while in the desert but i’ve actually been super consistent with friday fives this summer and i decided that if sam’s at work, i can post once. my blog, my rules, right?
i am slowly but surely getting over my death-like summer cold. i’m pretty sure refusing to be sick has been working wonders.
rock gym last night was wonderful and hard and frustrating and fun and a whole lot of can-i-do-this-no-i-can’t-yes-i-can-but-how-ohmygod-i-just-fucking-did-that. sam is a wonderful coach/cheerleader, namely in that she won’t let you quit even if you desperately want to; meaning: you push yourself past your limits and reach the top when you didn’t think you could. cheesy, yes. but its true.
stop doubting yourself and everyone around you. you are enough, you are loved, and if people felt differently they wouldn’t invest in you or your heart or your life. trust that those who do, mean it, even if it looks different to you than you think it would or should. you.are.enough.
i might be taking a break from tumblr for awhile, sometime soon. i’m not sure yet. but i’m wrestling with some things and sometimes things need to be wrestled with on paper and by voices, not on screens. but i don’t know yet. pointless point is pointless.
today was spent mostly asleep in bed; i’ve got some kind of mild chest cold attempting to ruin my week but with fluids + dayquil + essential oils + ginger + refusal to be sick, i’m confident i’ll be fine by thursday afternoon when i get to arizona.
watching someone grow and soul search and open their heart after keeping it locked down behind 20 foot walls for years might just be the most beautiful thing i have ever had the opportunity to witness.
what a weekend.
saturday was wonderful for many reasons, namely getting to meet-up with amendingamber and introduce her and her other hoosier friends to the best burgers fort worth has to offer. tumblr meet-ups for the win, y’all. that girl is lovely on and off screens.
the rest of the weekend:
return to the rock gym (!!). hadn’t eaten enough in the past 36 hours so it was a lot tougher than it should have been. but mentally i’m better than i was two months ago, despite the long break. so that’s good to know.
reading harry potter 1 out loud to a 22-year-old who has never read them = pure joy. its adorable and endearing and so fun. he loves them. (obviously)
open hearts. communication.
4 mile walk yesterday with some great company. breaking in the new hiking kicks and getting sweaty. more HP. ice cream.
3 days until the desert!